HOW I WAS SAVED FROM DRUGS

By Teresa Lynn

     Not too long ago, I thought I was literally going crazy.  I had been living two lives for twenty years.  It finally caught me.  On Sundays and with my family, I was the good Christian.  Every other day, I was a drug addict.  God had enough of my games.  My husband and I were arrested.  I loved the drugs.  They kept me from having any feelings.  I was energetic and sometimes invincible.  I tried the suicide thing four to five times.  I couldn't understand why God would not let me die.  I didn't see that He had great plans for me in the near future.  Psalm 40:2 says, "He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire, he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. 

     I thank God for my parents.  They brought me up in a Christian home.  I knew better, but it seemed like so much fun at the time and everyone used drugs that I was hanging out with.  I was not strong enough at the time to stand up for my Christ like life.  Even though my husband is in prison for a long time, I go on living for Christ.  I know when he is finished with him there, he will bring him home. 

     He's been working on me.  The beauty I saw in myself was gone.  I couldn't look in a mirror.  The guilt and shame ate me up.  I now look with my head high and I am proud of myself.  I am beautiful now.  I am a child of God.  Each day is a challenge.  The devil works so hard to bring me down.  I pray and I pray and God picks me up and he works things out.  Sometimes it's not the way I want it, but it's God's way.  He created me and he's living in me today.  I can face anything that is handed to me today because I know I have the armor of God on.  I get my Bible and make the devil go away, just like we are promised.  Jesus says in Matthew 4:10 "Away from me Satan, for it is written, "Worship the Lord your God and serve him only."

     Do I still think about drugs?  Yes, I think about how insane my life was.  There never really was no good life- only deceptions.  My eyes were shut.  I realize today that God will not allow me to bear more than I can handle.  It gets scary sometimes for a few minutes, then I realize he's making me stronger.  There is no easy way out of the mess I made, but it's much easier having the love and care from God.  Life is so hard right now for everyone.  Don't turn to drugs of any kind.  Turn your eyes to Jesus.  He loves you very much and wants to help you like he did me.  If you think you are too far gone, don't give up, just ask Christ to help you like I did.  I didn't know I would be going to jail, but that's what it took for me and I am very thankful for that today.  It was the only way to get my attention.  I pray that this will touch someone and they will put the life of drugs and alcohol away and follow Jesus Christ.  Give it a try, you'll love it.  The peace, joy and love you experience is tremendous.